Megan Jayne Crabbe gained 115 pounds in one year to save her own life, but when she posted a picture of it, haters told her she “ruined her body” by getting “fat.”
Her response? Her happiness and mental health is more important than dying for a dress size.
The 23-year-old was diagnosed with anorexia when she was 14. Doctors told her she had weeks to live when she had dwindled to a mere 65 pounds at 15. She now dedicates her life to promoting self-confidence through her Instagram account and website centered around having a positive body image with hopes to rescue others from serious eating disorders and mental health issues.
In a before and after post on her Instagram account, Crabbe said, “You’ll probably notice the most obvious thing I’ve gained between these two pictures: weight. But there are so many other things I’ve gained as well. I’ve gained mental freedom. I’ve gained self-love. I’ve gained my life back after so many years of believing that I wasn’t worthy of living it because of how my body looked.”
Nasty comments came flooding in such as, “Wait, so you just decided to ruin your body?” “You could have stayed the same and loved your body, you didn’t need to get fat.” “But surely you can’t be happy looking like that now, I could never be happy in that body.”
Crabbe responded to some of the comments by saying she could have stayed skinny, but would have spiralled back into an eating disorder that might have killed her. Her mental health far outweighs looking thin and she never thought she could be happy in a bigger body until she learned happiness isn’t a size.
“Although there are cruel comments from trolls here and there, nothing could diminish the feeling that you’re helping people realize how wonderful they truly are,” Crabbe said.
According to the National Association of Anorexia Nervosa and Associated Disorders, at least 30 million people of both genders and all ages suffer from eating disorders in the U.S. and .9 percent of women will suffer from anorexia at some point during their lifetime.
Crabbe frequently posts humorous, positive tips and thoughts about body image on social media to encourage people to love themselves. She posts honest and unaltered photos of her own body to show it’s possible to be confident in your own skin – despite the “flaws.”
“If a picture of my tummy rolls or cellulite being shamelessly embraced can show someone else that their body is worth loving too, then I will post the most tummy-tatic, lumpy bumpy thunder thigh pictures that I can take,” Crabbe said.
If your clothes don’t fit anymore, get rid of them. They only remind you of what you’re not. Crabbe said the key is finding clothes that fit and make you feel good about your curves or lack thereof. Also, if the size of your clothes makes you uncomfortable, cut the tags out.
She reminds her followers that everyone has insecurities about their body no matter their shape or size. You are not alone. The best thing to do is look at yourself as a whole and love yourself, flaws and all.